Once Upon A Time....

I was married.

Actually, it's been almost a year since we split. This has been the quickest year in my life, seriously.

In the course of this year, I've re-examined my life more times then I'd like to. I've re-lived most of the memories we've shared, and have even visited a lot of the places the memories take place in. I haven't reached the point where I can look back fondly on what I had without some pain, I'm pretty sure I'll be able to eventually, or at least, with minimal pain.

And slowly, I've changed...this time, not for the worse. I'm more independent and self-reliant then I've ever been. Things I didn't used to do I now don't even mind doing (well, except dishes damnit!). While the new Ben is certainly not perfect, he is definately improving.

I still miss my old life, but I'm starting to accept my new life, and actually enjoy it. A little.