I wish you knew how much I absolutely adore every part of your being.

I wish I wasn't the guy who tried, who constantly reaches out. It's active, it's affectionate, it shows a desire to be there.

Yet I'm wishing I wasn't. I'm wishing I was the guy you came to, the one who could just do my own thing for months at a time, yet you come after me, and treat me better then the one who's been there for you every day.

He doesn't have to invest his heart and have it get broken.

The love I give 24 hours a day can not be compared to the lust someone else will give you.

It's a shame there ever needed to be clarification.

I don't mean to cry occasionally when we talk. I'm that sad we're not together any more, sure I wish we were, but I can deal with us being not. I cry because I still have to so much love for you, my lover, my best friend, my Bunny. Like you've always wanted to see from me, I just want to see the best from you. I hate seeing you resigned to what life has dealt you. I was there the split second your life changed, and was there when it changed even again. You were stuck with me for a while, until I wasn't strong enough to keep you. My heart overflows because because of me, you're at a place you don't life, resigned to a lifestyle you told me you were through with.

Now my heart once again overflows as you're heading out to follow your dream, although it's not 100% how you wanted it to be, it's a step. It inspires me to no end because until this point in life, I've seen a lot of people fall ass-backwards into their dreams. With you I see the person I adore taking the risk I had only heard about you doing, I see the you I've always heard about. That makes me cry, with joy.

I hate my mind. Not only do I feel complete alone, I feel left out of something

Am I the only one who doesn't know what the fuck is going on?

It's so incredibly hard to let you go, after I made it my hobby to hold you tight. I wish I had improved myself prior to ever meeting you, I hated to be the rosebush, a pure love like the flower, but too many problems like thorns.

I'm not sure I can explain the love and reguard I feel for you, I know at times my actions did not demonstrate that but I can assure you that I love you harder then I've ever loved anyone before, and I gave you everything in my power and beyond to help you out.

But I can't continue to cry myself to sleep at night, wishing I was with you and constantly over-thinking EVERYTHING that made me feel less then I should feel about myself.

I love you with every ounce of my remarkable being, I just want what's best for you...but I have to let go.