Self-Doubt

I'd say this was going to be a revelation entry, but my two faithful readers both know me well enough to have observed my revelation. I suffer from self-doubt. Often. Sometimes it's slight and I can blow it off, sometimes it's all consuming and will eat up an entire day.

I'm a dreamer, and like most dreamers my dreams are lavish and extreme, big houses, millions of dollars, change the world type dreams. I've been good of late chasing and pursuing these dreams and doing my best to make them happen. Somehow it seems, I always get shy when it comes to pulling the trigger. I can't say it's from being burnt, because I haven't been burnt often or hard enough to make an impact (IMO), I guess I'm just a wuss and afraid of the bang.

Overcoming who you've been is the hardest thing I've been learning how to do this last year. It's so easy to be one way and be so comfortable to not change how you were. After all, change is put in our heads to be bad. But I beg to differ, change is good, sometimes great.

I dunno, I've just been blah of late. Too many processes going on in the dome I guess.